Trying to be happy

Trying to be happy
Lørdag 12. Januar 2002, Hadsund.

part 1
I have not loved in a year
I have not made love in half a year
I have not been happy for at least a month
I’ve not been angry for a week
I have not been drinking for a day
forgotten your smiles to me
and when you said I love you
have’nt fooled around with other girls
But I smoked cigars for a while
And you have not been in
any kind of contact with me
All I ever were is depressed

And been drinking my life away
The end is near to quit our marriage
and return back into loneliness
Oh I try to be happy
though I’m sad and depressed
I belive that happyness is best

part 2
Oh, I signed the form
now our marriage is over
Such a clean dream (wonderfull dream)
Oh yeah, I’m your son dear God
I know I’m so wrong
Spend my time in prayers
I thought I did enough every day
Now I know I have failed
And in loneliness I have been jailed

But now I’ll take on the world with a smile
Like a pathetic hypocrite, just for a while
I guess I could walk a thousand miles
Suffering for all those whose smiles (I ripped off)
I just trying to be happy, cos’ I think it’s the best
better than walking ’round as depressed.